Dear Babies, It's been too long....

Dear Miracle Babies,

It's been entirely too long since I've been able to sit down and write a letter to you. It hasn't been because I haven't wanted to, it's just been because you boys keep Mommy so so busy!

Life has been wonderful and amazing and fast paced and crazy since you two came into it, but I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world. Being your Mommy is one of the best gifts God has ever given me.

Aj, we'll start with you! Where to begin! You, my sweet boy, are such a little ham! You are so funny, and such a flirt! You are my little cuddle bug and I absolutely love that. You've passed so many milestones since I last wrote to you! You've officially got 4 teeth. Two on the top and two on the bottom. You've got a stunning little smile that could melt even the coldest of hearts, and your laugh is absolutely contageous. There isn't a time you laugh that it doesn't make me laugh in turn. And as of today, you've officially begun walking. You can Mom and Dadadada, and you also wave bye bye. You LOVE your food, and your favorite food as of right now is cake and chicken nuggets. You also make the cutest noises while eating! You LOVE throwing balls inside your poppity dinosaur, and you love to put smaller toys and balls inside of bigger toys....You're so smart and I am so proud to be your Mommy! You bring a joy to my life that I just can't explain sweet boy, and I love you more than words could ever express.

Jaydyn, your next my sweet ornery little boy. You my baby, are such a little mischievious little man and quite the tease. You're a cuddle and run baby, taking time only to cuddle when your running to your next toy. You've passed by so many milestones just like your brother since I last wrote to you! You've got 8 teeth total, 4 on top, and 4 on bottom. You've got this ornery little smile that ALWAYS makes me think your up to something, and your laugh is equally mischievious! You say Momma, and Dada, and you especially love saying Momma when I say "yes, my baby" to you. You like your food pretty well, but most of the time you're so busy on the go that you don't like to stop to eat too often. You LOVE watching people play the guitar at church and so far your favorite thing to play with is your elmo guitar and a peek-a-blocks popping elephant that we got your for your birthday! You've been walking since you were 10 months old and you are so smart! I am so proud tobe our Mommy! You bringa joy to my life that I just can't express to you in words my sweet boy. I love you more than words can say!

You both are doing so many things now, and you're doing more and more together. You do a lot of laughing at eachother these days, and you also get into trouble together as well! You both have taken to climbing recently and have nearly given your Daddy and I a heartattack on more than one occasion.

You both like watching tv. Your favorite shows are Barney, Thomas the Train Engine, Bob the Builder, Yo Gabba Gabba, and The Backyardagins! Your favorite movie so far is Toy Story!

You both are officially 1 now. A day that Mommy was happy and sad to see. It meant you were no longer my itty bitties and were officially my big boys. But no matter what, you will always be my babies! We had a big 1st birthday party for you and so many people were there to celebrate with us. Your theme was Noah's Ark "they came two by two". You both ate your cake, but Jaydyn you cried because you didn't like getting your hands dirty! Aj, you didn't mind at all and devoured your cake. You even managed to get some in your hair! :-)

Mommy still stays home with you guys, something that she loves being able to do. In a few short years, you two will be getting ready to go off to school and be leaving Mommy here alone. I don't look forward to those days actually. If I could I would keep you little and innocent like you are now, forever.

We've started a new night night routine here lately. Mommy and Daddy read books to you before bed. Our favorites to read are Bible Stories :) I hope and pray that they will ALWAYS be your favorites and that you two will grow to be STRONG men of God.

There have been a lot of sad things happening around us lately. Just recently a young boy took his own life. Both of you have a cold and as I was holding you boys tonight trying to console you, a thought ran through my mind. That young boy was once a baby like you two are now. That boys Mommy once held him like I hold you, once hugged and kissed him and played with him like I do you.... and now she has lost him... which leads me to something I want to say to you both....

My dear sweet sweet babies, please please PLEASE NEVER EVER EVER think that this world doesn't need you, that no body wants you, and that no body loves you. Mommy could not BARE the pain of loosing either of you. The thought of it alone nearly brings me to tears. It's a pain I could stand and a pain that I just don't think I could live through. I NEED both of you so very very much in my life. I will ALWAYS need you both in my life. My dear sweet boys, I love you so much that my heart hurts and that I would give my own life if I ever had to if it meant saving yours. Before you were born I spent 5 years dreaming about you, praying for you, wanting you. Wanting to know if I would ever have you, what you would look like, how you would sound....Bu I want you both to know something. I want you both to know that not only do I love you that much, but Jesus loves you even more than I do. (which is a WHOLE lot)... Not only did Jesus know you and love you before He create you, but He DID die for you so that you could live. My miracle babies, please please please don't ever choose to not live. Please know that if you feel no one else needs you, I need and WANT you and more importantly Jesus needs and wants you.

Anyways, I just wanted to take a quick minute to write to you both. I'd love to get back into blogging more, but we just stay so busy with all the playing and running around that we do...that it's hard to get the time.

I sincerely love you both more than life itself. Please know I have and always will want and need you!

All of my deepest and most sincere love to you both my babies.
xoxoxo
Love Always and Forever,
Your Mommy

From 6 weeks to 4 months!

Dearest Aj & Jaydyn,
Time has seriously flown by. In my last letter to you, I told you I'd be writing you as soon as I could. And honestly, I've not found the time til now (and even now, I should be doing laundry). It's insane how time has flown by and how much you both have grown. So much that I don't even know where to begin.

Aj, I guess I'll start with you sweet pea. You've grown so much. From the day I knew you were in my belly, you were Baby A. And the day you were born, you were my tiny 5lbs 3oz baby boy. And now you're my now 13lbs 1oz little hunk of love! I love you more than words can express and although I can see your Dad in you from time to time, I'm starting to see a bit of myself (and your Papaw) in you every day as well. You've still got your laid back little attitude, except you've finally found your voice and for the most part you enjoy sharing it with Mommy. Especially when you wake up in the mornings. You're also more sleepy headed than your brother, but that's because he thinks he can't miss a thing that goes on!

You've got the biggest, most adorable, silly contagious smile that I've ever seen, but sometimes you make us work extra hard to see it. And you've got the most adorable little chuckle ever, but as of right now, very few of us can get that out of you. Mostly myself, your Nana Karen, and the 10 cent frog that croaks at you. Your Nana Karen got it for you at a garage sale and every time that frog says ribbit, your eyes light up and you smile, it cracks me up. I often look at you and tell your Daddy I could just suck your little cheeks right off your face because they're so adorable and pudgy! You are sincerely one of the most beautiful babies God has ever made and I am so glad God made you for me. You're perfect in every way to me and I love you more than I love my own life. Keep growing big boy, you make Mommy so proud. I love you.

Your turn Jaydyn. When it comes to active, feisty babies, you are the cream of the crop little man. It's been that way since I have been able to feel you kick in my belly. You definitely have your own schedule for life, and it involves being busy and keeping yourself aware of EVERYTHING that goes on. You think that you can't miss a thing, so in order to make sure you don't, you only sleep in 10-20 minute increments unless it's bed time.

From my little Baby B, to my 5lbs 9oz little man at birth, you've done quite the growing yourself. You're now 13lbs even and boy are you full of surprises. At just 4 months, apparently you think you need to be an over achiever because you are already sporting a small white bump on your gums that will eventually become your first tooth. And boy are you making sure Mom knows it.

A lot of people think you look like your Daddy, but secretly I think you look like me and your Papaw! And when you smile, it's one of the most adorable things I've ever seen. Your brother's smile melts my heart and yours does to. But there is something about your smile that I can't just help but to laugh. You've got a mischievous smile that lets me know I am in SO MUCH TROUBLE when you start crawling. Which is going to be coming sooner than I want to imagine! You're also quite the opinionated little man. Always talking and telling people what you think, even when they aren't talking to you or asking for your opinions. But one thing you always insist on telling us is "i good". You make sure we know that. And you are more than good, you're prefect in every way. Just like you brother, God made you one of the most beautiful babies I've ever seen. And just as I am grateful he gave me your brother, I am equally grateful He gave you to me too. I can't imagine my life without your or your brother in it. I love you more than I love my own life. Keep growing little man, you make me so proud. I love you.


One thing about it, boys, my life and your Daddy's life have definitely become sweeter with you in it. And of course, more interesting. People are always stopping to ask us if you're twins, you're names, how old you are, how big you were at birth...you draw quite the crowd! Sometimes people ask us if you're natural twins, and I contemplate telling them no, you're robot babies. I guess I'm a naughty Mommy like that sometimes.

Anyways, I've got to end our letter. You both are on your playmat on the floor, and you're pretty mad that Mommy isn't holding you. So I'm going to fix you're cereal, feed you, cuddle and love on you some more, and then try to get you boys into the bed so I can finish cleaning and laundry.

I love you both more than I could ever begin to express with words. Keep growing, keep amazing me everyday, and keep being the two beautiful blessings that you are.

xoxoxox
Love you forever,
Mommy.

6 weeks, and growing!

Hello Babies, it's Mommy again!

I just wanted to write super quick and let you both know how you're doing at 6 weeks old! You both definitely keep Mommy busy! According to the scales, AJ you now weigh 8lbs 3 ounces and Jaydyn you are now 8lbs 7 ounces! You're growing so well! Good job boys!

Mommy can definitely see the difference in attitudes with you boys! AJ you are more laid back and Jaydyn you are far more high maintainence! Which is exactly the way you both were in Mommy's belly! It's hard to believe it has been 6 weeks and 1 day ago since Mommy last felt you kick her from inside her belly!

I love you both more than you could ever know, and I love being your Mommy!!!!

xoxo
I will write again as soon as I can!

Love you always,
Mommy

One Month!

Dear Aj& Jaydyn,

Happy 1 month! Mommy can't believe it's been a whole month ago already that you were introduced to the world. One month ago Mommy and Daddy were welcoming their new additions into the world, thanking God that He had given you both to us happy and healthy, and brought us through the surgery okay. That month seems to have flown by and stood still all at once.

I'm writing this now as you little Aj are sleeping away in your swing, and you little Jaydyn, are sleeping on some pillows next to me on the couch. It's amazing how much I'm learning about you both individually and together. Aj, so far you seem to be Mommy's laid back little man and Jaydyn you seem to be Mommy's little wild guy! And when you get the two of you together, you definitely know how to give Mom a run for her money! But I'm seriously loving every single minute of it.

Although we are still having some issues with sleeping good during the night, Mommy is convinced that God gave her two of the most perfect little boys on the face of the birth. The love that I have for the two of you is a whole new love. It's a type of love I've never known before you two came into my life. It makes me think of God's love for his Son Jesus. Although God's love is more than I could ever comprehend, I like to think that I now know a little bit of what God's love for Jesus is like since he has given you two to me.

I love you both so very much, and am so very thankful God has given you to me. I am blessed beyond measure and filled with more joy and love than I can explain every time I look at you. Mommy promises to always do everything she possibly can in her power to protect you, and give you all that you need. But more than anything I promise to always, always love you unconditionally.

I love you my miracle babies. Keep growing strong and healthy for Mommy.

Loving you more than you even know,
xoxo Mommy

You've Arrived!!!

Dear AJ & Jaydyn,

Mommy always knew she'd be writing this letter eventually, but it still seems so surreal! In my last letter I wrote you, I was in the hospital again with contractions and was in active labor! They admitted me overnight to keep an eye on both of you and myself. As the morning rolled around, they contacted our doctor, Dr. Boyd, to let him know what was going on. And it was that morning that Dr. Boyd decided you boys were ready to meet the world. The nurse came in around 7:30ish and told Mommy that the doctor had decided we would be delivering you that day. Mommy immediately woke up Daddy (who was asleep on the couch) and told him, then she called Papaw. It was a few minutes later when Dr. Boyd stopped by and told Mommy we would be heading into surgery by 12 or 12:30 that afternoon.

Mommy was very excited and very nervous. Papaw and Karen and Lindsay got there around 11:30, and Penny and Kasey arrived just a few minutes later. Mommy also let Sasha and Holly know that you would be arriving and they also came so they could meet you!

Anyways, everyone was there waiting and talking, when the nurse came in and told me a C-section scheduled before mine was running behind and we should be going in shortly. Then, at 12:45, she showed up in the doorway and got myself and Daddy and we headed off to get started.

Once I got in the operating room, they got my spinal block started so that Mommy couldn't feel anything from the top of her belly down. The medicines made Mommy pretty sick and she threw up 3 times while they were starting the surgery to get you out of Mommy's belly. Then finally, at 1:30 pm on February 8th, 2011 they delivered you Mr. Angel "AJ" Luis Garcia IV. Mommy saw them rush you out of the operating room to the next room so they could make sure you were doing okay since you and brother were both premature. Then I heard you scream, letting Mommy know you were a-okay. But more importantly it reassured Mommy that your lungs were working fine which was the big worry for everyone. Then a full minute later, at 1:31pm on February 8th, 2011 they delivered you Mr. Jaydyn Timothy Garcia. I waited for you to cry, and it seemed like forever before I heard you let out that little scream. But you finally did. Daddy rushed between you AJ and you Jaydyn to take pictures. As Mommy laid there, I remember crying. Not because I was sad, but because I had never been so happy or thankful in my life as I was to have you two safe and sound! You were finally here! As I laid there and waited to be taken to recovery so I could get my first glimpse of you, I said a little prayer. I prayed and thanked God that both of you were healthy, that we had made it through surgery, and to thank Him for answering my prayers to be a Mother. I had waited almost 5 full years to hold my baby in my arms, and finally that dream and prayer had come true only God had multiplied that desire doubly.

Here are a few pictures from the hospital and once since you both have come home!

I love you both so much! You have have taught me a love and joy that can only be experienced by becoming a Mommy. I love you both so very very very much.



(Mommy's last belly shot!)


(Mommy holding you for the very first time!)


(You're very proud Daddy showing you off)


(Our first family photo!)


(Hanging out with Mommy at just a few days old!)


Angel "AJ" Luis Garcia IV born Feb. 8th, 2011 @ 1:30pm. 5lbs 3oz 18 inches long


Jaydyn Timothy Garcia born Feb. 8th, 2011 @ 1:31pm. 5lbs 9oz 18.5 inches long

<3 Love always and forever and ever <3
Mommy xoxo

Another Hospital Stay!

Dear Miracle Babies,

Apparently, you two either REALLY like the hospital atomosphere, or you've just decided you are completely done with hanging out inside Mommy's belly! Either way, you've managed to land us right back in the hospital at 35 weeks 4 days with contractions that are about 6 minutes apart, and some dilation and thinning that Mommy won't even try to make you understand. Just know that those three things combined mean Mommy might meet you before Saturday! :)

I am excited, and looking forward to getting some answers as to what the current plan of action is :)

But just know, if you plan on coming a little early, Mommy full expects you boys to be healthy little men!

I love you so much, and I'll keep you posted about your arrival from this side of the womb!

Love always,
xoxo Mommy

8 days and counting

Dear Aj & Jaydyn,

It's official! We have a delivery day scheduled! In 8 days, on February 12th, Mommy and Daddy will officially be in the operating room waiting to hear your little cries and to see your sweet little faces! It's so very exciting and I just can't wait!

The next 8 days I'm sure will seem to drag by, but will appear to have passed so quickly once we're walking into the hospital.

The wide range of emotions I'm going through are phenomenal to say the least. I'm of course excited, because I can't wait to hold you both. I can't wait to see your faces, see who you look like. Did you get your Daddy's smile and your Mommy's eyes? How much will you weigh, how long will you be? Will you know my voice?

And of course I'm a little nervous. Since Mommy has never had any major surgeries (other than her tonsils being removed), the fact that we are having a C-Section to deliver you both (since you Aj are breech and you Jaydyn are transverse) is a little nerve racking. But of course, Mommy is more than willing to endure pain and surgery because at the end of it all, it means I will be holding two perfectly made gifts from God. You two are truly my miracle babies, my gifts from God.

We have one last final appointment before Daddy and I meet you! Our next appointment is on Tuesday, February 8th, at 9:30 am. We get to see you on the ultrasound machine for the last time before we get to see you face to face for the first time! After our ultrasound, we'll get to see our doctor, Dr. Boyd (the man that will be delivering you), for the last time before we see him Saturday morning when he delivers you both! How exciting!!!

Mommy is going to end this letter now. I love you both so very much. Please use these last 8 days to get bigger and grow stronger.

See you soon.

Love always,
Mommy xoxo